Love is difficult to find

A lot of people at this point of the year would like to seek that special someone to be with. For me, it's always been tough...it's like a glass ceiling that is actually made of metal and you can't even break through.

For many, it is easy and still easy to get a significant other for themselves while others like myself are still wanting that special someone to have to care for. I can admit myself that I feel a bit of jealousy looking at some of my friends who are already married, or are having a boyfriend/girlfriend that I myself would like to know what it feels like.

Being single for my entire life, I start to learn why I have been single up to this point. When I have been shy for most of my life not wondering what to say to others how I think, how I feel, or how I live, you think what others may think about you.

Having a relationship with someone is the most happiest feeling that anyone would be blessed to have. To have that feeling of love, company, and trust with one another is what anyone would enjoy no matter how old or young you are.

I do not think that any one person should continue to live single as long as I have...those people should have a significant other to care for. They deserve to have that one moment in their lives that make them feel that happiness with another person.

However, it is quite difficult to find these days when you try to be as nice and courteous as you can like I have and not get that happy moment with someone else as much as you would have envisioned it.

I would hope that this would not continue for myself and I would like to have a relationship with someone as should any other single person out there. They should enjoy life with any other person as much as they like to be happy.

Happiness...What is it?

Everyone seems to have their own view of happiness...whether it is being with friends, being in a relationship, starting a family, enjoying a job that they love, and accomplishing a goal that seemed damn-near impossible to reach. As I see it, it seems kind of impossible to know if I am content with happiness or if I am still looking for more to make me happy.

As it stands, I've done a lot up to this point that makes me a great person...being friendly among everyone who is around me, earned a college degree, and just improved on being a very social person. So I keep asking myself, "why am I still not happy?"

It just seems like the more I miss out on the fun things in life, the more the happiness seems to slowly but surely fade away. I'd like more fun things to happen in life like travel to places I've never been to before, meet with more people (and possibly start a relationship with someone), and just discover more possibilities that would make my life better.

Until then, right now I am content with life as it is right now...being with a family that enjoys life as it goes by, being at a job that brings joy to children (as hard as it is to work with them), and having friends that are willing and able to help you enjoy life as it comes. I'd still be asking what can I do to make myself even happier as life goes by. I'm sure everyone asks themselves this question as well, and does enough of an effort to earn the pursuit of happiness.

Hope everyone enjoys life as it comes!

My 2013 so far...

Already past the half way point of 2013 and it has been a mix of highs and lows so far. It is almost the one-year anniversary of me leaving Orlando for Texas and it has been quite an adjustment for me to make. I still have been at my job at Adventure Landing for almost a year and have seen a lot of changes there including the friends that don't work there no more and new people that do...I swear, it is as if I do not even recognize the place anymore. Can't tell if that is a good thing or a bad thing, but it affects me more to either keep working there and hope something good happens or leave and find better work elsewhere.

As for life at home, it seems to be settling more despite my little dog, Ollie, getting sick over the past weekend. The poor little thing had to be put in the vet hospital for 3 days and so far has seen a lot of improvement. My little brother, Andrew, unfortunately had to put his culinary dreams on hold and is currently working at a craft store called Hobby Lobby. His friend, Brine, is currently looking for work as well. My mom still does a lot of arts and crafts hobbies at home while her husband, Charly, continues to do more work for the movie theater, Cinemark, and I must say he does a lot more travelling for his work than all of us.

A lot of things coming up in the future such as my little brother, Stephen's wedding to his high school sweetheart, Deanna and I am currently looking forward to returning to my home town of Key West, Florida...a place that I have not been to since moving away from there in 2009, and I am eagerly looking forward to seeing what has changed since then. I'm also looking forward to seeing the rest of my family and wondering what they have been doing for the past year.

Not a lot of great things to look forward to for my sports teams though as most of my favorite pro teams are in last place or close to it...pretty much sucks to be a fair weather fan, but I can live for it as long as the future remains bright for those teams. Definitely can't wait for football season though...there's no better time in sports than that!

I can only hope for the best that 2013 will end on a very high note personally and mentally too. I hope everyone else out there has a great rest of 2013 as well!

Peace and love to everyone out there!